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Paastiin tanne perille hyvin ja ai etta millanen paikka taa on, kaunis ku mika! Ja joulupukkeja ja appelsiineja pursuavia puita vieri vieressa! Perhe on ihan alyttoman mukava, ja sain isoaidin hyvaksynnan...

Nyt on kylla pakko saada vieritettya sydamelta yks asia pois: syotiin eilen seepiaa. Soin reippaana tyttona kokonaisen palan, se oli leivitetty ja maku oli hyva, aika kalaisa. Sit avasin Wikipedian ja meinas lentaa laatta jos toinenkin kun nain kuvan, yyyh.

Kaytiin eilen Nicolan, sen veljen ja sen tyttoystavan kanssa Barissa illalla. Taa on outoa kun taallakin tulee jo suht aikasin pimeeta, viiden maissa. Taa on eka kerta ku oon Italiassa talvella, ja hassua kulkea takki paalla ja hanskat kadessa. Kielen kanssa oon selvinny aika hyvin, joskus oon vaan pihalla jos naa puhuu murteella.

Huomenna mennaan Nicolan ja sen siskon kanssa junalla Bariin, ja paasen Henkkamaukalle! :D Kaydaan myos museoissa ja kirkoissa, ja sitten illalla mennaan veljen ja tyttiksen kanssa Polignanoon. Jouluna tulee sitten vissiin koko suku paikalle, paniikki. Kaikki ihmiset tahan mennessa on ollu yli-ihania, ainoa joka on ollu melko hyokkaava on Nicolan siskon kissa, ei oo ihan tayskasvunen viela. Eilen se hyokkas Nicolan aralle alueelle kynsilla ku Nicola seiso ja joi vetta, en tiia mita siella kisun paassa liikkuu - jos mitaan.

En oo voinu huonosti taalla ja eilenkin tuli paansarky ku olin sisalla ja muut poltti, eli voisin kai luokitella itteni parantuneeks kohtapuolin. Tai no ton seepian jalkeen oli vahan janna olo.

Buon Natale!

paniikki

Tanaan Lontooseen. Huomenna Italiaan.

26. paiva kera migreenin.

Miten ma ymmarran jos koko suku huutaa paallekkain samaan aikaan?

Miten ma voin kieltaytya kohteliaasti merisiilista ja mustekalasta?

Enta raa'asta silakasta?

Rajahtaako mun poski- ja otsaontelot kesken lennon?

Voinko ma itse asiassa puhua mistaan muusta ku puunilaissodista sen perheen kans?

Aiuto.

oman lupauksen rikkominen

Lupasin itselleni viime viikon maanantaina etta seuraavan kerran ku joudun tiputukseen tai joudun sairaalaan ois sillon ku meen synnyttamaan jonain paivana, mutta kuinkas sitten kavikaan... Perjantaina paasin jonon ohi aamulla arvauskeskukseen, kun sillon 11 paivaa kestany migreeni alko olla sietamatonta. Sielta paasin tietokonetomografiaan mut kuvista ei loytynyt mitaan epanormaalia. Sunnuntaiaamulla klo 4 aloin oksennella rajusti, kuume nousi ekan kerran sitten maaliskuun 2008, ja toinen puoli kehosta meni tunnottomaksi. Otettiin taksi kun kuskit nukku viela ja sain heti tipan ranteeseen - myohemmin hoitajat manaili tipan paikkaa, sain menna tanaan sairaalassa suihkuun ja oli aika mielekasta olla suihkussa kun veden mukana virtasi omaa verta pitkin kehoa...

Olin ensiavussa 13 tuntia, ja paasin neurologiselle osastolle sunnuntaina iltayhdeksalta ja paasin tanaan kotiin neljan maissa. Mulla oli hirveat kivut, lahinna paassa ja niskassa, kuulemma paha lihastulehdus... Eka yo oli niin tuskaa etta sain lopulta morfiinia. Kokeilin niin montaa kipulaaketta etta henkilokunta ei tiennyt kuinka montaa uutta ainetta ne kokeilis. Jouduin uudelleen kuvauksiin, mitaan ei loytyny. Sairaalan ruoka oli tajuttoman hyvaa ja lopulta kaikki hoitsut ja laakarit tiesi mun nimen. Joskus en saanu sanomaani perille kun kieltaydyin puhumasta englantia, mut yllattavan hyvin meni silti vaikka olin aivan sekasin suurimman osan ajasta. Vasemman kaden toiminnot ei oo ihan ennallaan viela, samoin tasapaino tai puhekyky, sanoja pitaa ettia enemman ku ennen. Toivottavasti taa on vaan valiaikaista, ois kiva pystya taas hyppimaan vasemmalla jalalla. 22,5 vuotta sain valteltya sairaaloita, jos nyt sitten vaikka ens kerralla sairaaloituisin ku menisin synnyttamaan :)

migreeni kieltaa opiskelun

Ah, vielakin tasapaino hukassa, korvassa jyskyttaa ja paa halkeaa justiinsa. Pitais opiskella varmaan kaikki ikivanhat islannin tekstit (Egils sagan kayn lapi opettajan powerpointista, Hávamál pitaa varmaan luntata netista...), kaantaa Gæludýrinin 3 ekaa kappaletta islannista suomeen ja laittaa selitykset mukaan opettajalle kun se ei osaa suomea, tehda syntaksin vaikea kotikoe ja kirjottaa pari esseeta italiaks. Mut paa ei toimi :( enka yksinkertaisesti vaan jaksa lojua sangyssa, enka kuunnella radiota paansaryn vuoksi. Laitan lampotyynyn kohta mikroon kunhan se on sulanut kun otin sen just pakkasesta, joten sita odotellessa tapan aikaa ja vastaan kyselyyn, jonka nappasin Ninochkan enkunkielisesta blogista.

Basics
Your gender: female
Straight/Gay/Bi: straight
Single?: nei
Birthdate: 26 May 1987
Your age: 22
Age you act: it depends. I think I'm a little more mature because of becoming independent so early, but I can also act like a 10-year-old.
Age you wish you were: being 20 was pretty nice.
Your height: 170 cm, 5'7''
Eye color: something between blue and green
Happy with it?: why not
Hair color: blonde
Happy with it?: I wish it was brighter
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: righty
Your living arrangement: a little apartment in a basement which I share with my bf Nicola and my 2 Finnish friends.
Your family: mom, dad and 4 little brothers: Pauli (18), Kauri (15), Runo (9) and Leimu (6). I also consider Nicola and the Finnish flat mates as my family, because we do a lot of stuff together.
Have any pets?: when I was still living in Finland we had a chow chow and three rats, but not anymore. I would like to have a pet when I know that I don't have to move any time soon.
What's your job?: I would love to be a camp counselor, but right now I'm trying to finish my BA in Icelandic.
Piercings?: 5.
Tattoos?: none, but I would like to have one
Obsessions?: concentrating, languages, Finnish grammar
Addictions?: tea, chocolate milk
Do you speak another language?: I speak Finnish, Icelandic, English, Esperanto and Italian every day. I have also studied German, Latin, Swedish, French, Russian, Spanish and ancient Greek, but I guess I can speak 7 languages plus Finnish actively.
Have a favorite quote?: "Quando di notte soffro d'insonnia prendo dei lassativi.
Non dormo lo stesso, ma almeno ho qualcosa da fare." I don't remember where I heard that one.
Do you have a webpage?: no, just two blogs
Do you live in the moment?: not really
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: yes, my poker face is awesome, even though I would be exploding inside
Do you have any secrets?: yes
Do you hate yourself?: I don't hate myself even though I have a very negative self image.
Do you like your handwriting?: yeah, why not
Do you have any bad habits?: being negative, biting my fingernails
What is the compliment you get from most people?: that my accent in Icelandic and English are great
What's your biggest fear?: water, flying, an IV (tippaletku), losing someone close
Can you sing?: in a choir yes, but not as a soloist
Are you a loner?: no shit, Sherlock
What are your #1 priorities in life?: having a family and finding an awesome job
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: maybe
Are you a daredevil?: sometimes
Are you passive or agressive?: depends, I can be both
Do you have a journal?: livejournal, this one and a real diary
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: the whole package
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: not telling some jerks at school to go to hell
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: try not to be so hard on yourself
What do you like the most about your body?: my long fingers
Do you think you are good looking?: could be worse
Are you confident?: no
Are you perceived wrongly?: yes, because I hate talking to strangers and tend to look like I don't give a crap about anything

Do You...
Smoke?: nope
Do drugs?: nope
Read the newspaper?: sometimes, the newspaper we get for free is usually full of kúk. I read the Finnish news on the Internet.
Go to church?: In the States yes, here only if I have to sing with the choir
Talk to strangers who IM you?: nope
Sleep with stuffed animals?: yes... :/
Talk to people even though you hate them?: if they talk to me first
Drive?: nope
Like to drive fast?: nope

Would or Have You Ever..
Liked your voice?: it could be worse, but I HATE hearing my voice
Hurt yourself?: yes
Been out of the country?: yes. I worked in the States for 4 summers and I'm living abroad at the moment.
Eaten something that made other people sick?: yes, salmiakki :D and pasta with pesto and tuna...
Been in love?: yes
Done drugs?: no
Gone skinny dipping?: yeah
Had a medical emergency?: yes, on Monday
Had surgery?: nope
Ran away from home?: yes
Played strip poker?: yes
Gotten beaten up?: not really
Beaten someone up?: no
Been picked on?: since I was 6
Been on stage?: yeah
Slept outdoors?: yeah
Thought about suicide?: yeah
Pulled an all nighter?: haha, yeah
Gone one day without food?: yeah
Talked on the phone all night?: I guess not
Slept all day?: yes
Killed someone?: mosquitoes
Thought you're going crazy?: yes
Kissed the same sex?: nope
Been betrayed?: kinda
Had a dream that came true?: yes
Broken the law?: I guess so
Met a famous person?: yes
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: nope
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: yeah, but to a person I trusted 100%
Stolen anything?: no
Been on radio/tv?: yeah, and on the front cover of a magazine
Been in a mosh-pit?: yeah
Had a nervous breakdown?: yeah
Bungee jumped?: nope
Had a dream that kept coming back?: sure

Beliefs..
Belive in life on other planets?: yeah
Miracles?: yeah
Astrology?: yeah
Magic?: not really
God?: yeah
Satan?: nope
Santa?: nope
Ghosts?: yeah
Luck?: nope
Love at first sight?: yeah
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: nope
Witches?: nope
Easter bunny?: I wish
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: yeah
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: sadly not
Do you wish on stars?: nope

Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: yeah
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: my mom
Your favourite inside joke?: using Esperanto incorrectly
Thing you're picked on most about?: I have been picked on about everything; the way I look, the numbers I got at school, my appetite, my behavior, the fact that I couldn't care lass about anything
Who's your longest known friend?: Saana
Newest?: Grétar and Sæþór
Shyest?: Marie
Funniest?: aanrii
Sweetest?: Nicola
Closest?: Nicola
Most Random?: Simone
Ditziest?: your mom
Friends you miss being close to the most?: my family, my colleagues at Camp Massanetta, my friends in Finland
Last person you talked to online?: my mom
Who do you talk to most online?: my mom and my friends in IRC
Who are you on the phone with most?: Nicola
Who listens to your problems?: a psychologist, Nicola, my mom
Who do you fight most with?: myself
Who's the nicest?: I can't pick just one
Who's the most outgoing?: Leah
Who's the best singer?: Matt and Jordan
Who's on your bad-list?: some ex-classmates
Who's your second family?: My flat mates, counselors at Camp Massanetta and Nicola's family
Do you always feel understood?: hah, not
Who's the loudest friend?: Heli
Do you trust others easily?: I guess
Who's house were you last at?: I don't even remember... but my Icelandic teacher is going to have a party for us students on Tuesday
Name one person whose arms you feel safe in: Nicola
Do your friends know you?: I'm not sure, I don't even know myself
Do you consider love a mistake?: nope
What do you find romantic?: caring
Turn-on?: intelligence, friendliness, Italians, good sense of humor
Turn-off?: bad hygiene, machos
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going out?: I don't really care
Have you ever wished it was more socially acceptable for a girl to ask a guy out?: whatever, I don't care
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: I guess it's my politeness and sense of humor that attracts guys instead of the way I look
What is best about the opposite sex?: humor
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex? they can be pigs and rating other women
What's the last present someone gave you?: Nicola buys me candy or something good sometimes, but I guess the last present I got was my cell phone
Are you in love?: yes!

Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: Jack Nicholson
You wanted to kill?: I don't remember
That you laughed at?: Grétar
That laughed at you?: Nicola
That turned you on?: Nicola
That broke your heart?: some male jerks
To disappoint you?: Some people at Massanetta who told us that there won't be Camp Massanetta anymore
To make you cry?: my mom
That you thought about?: Nicola
You saw a movie with?: Nicola, Johanna, Heli, Jaana, Grétar
You talked to on the phone?: Nicola
You talked to through IM/ICQ? Ryan
You saw?: Nicola

Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: no, because of the migraine
Will it be with your significant other?: with your mom
Or some random person?: your mom is pretty random
What are you wearing right now?: long black velvet pants (guys' underwear, don't ask) and a Pokemon hoodie
What are you worried about right now?: the exams, this effing migraine
What's on your mousepad?: don't have one
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: sick, hungry, tired, anxious, cold
Are you bored?: kinda
Are you tired?: yes
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: nope
Are you lonely or content?: lonely and content
Are you listening to music?: yeah, some Mexican music on TV

ekaa kertaa ambulanssissa

Penteleen migreeni. Mulla on ollu kauhea migreeni suunnilleen viikon, eli aina kun nousen ylos tai kaannan paata, tai kun nukun, tuntuu ihan hirvea paine paan sisalla, kuulo heikkenee hetkeks ja tuntuu etta paa ja niska rajahtais.

Eilen tulin sitten koulusta kotiin ja rupesin ripustamaan pyykkia, kun yhtakkia vasen jalka puutu ja tunto havis. Tiesin jo siina vaiheessa mita tulee tapahtumaan, joten jatin pyykit siihen ja tulin keittioon. Pari minuuttia sen jalkeen puutus vasen kylki, sitten vasen kasi ja vasen puoli kasvoista. En saanu tartuttua mihinkaan vasemmalla kadella, tuntu ihan ku se olis ollu jonkun toisen kasi. Soitin aidille Suomeen ja kysyin etta mita pitais tehda, ku oon yksin kotona enka paase ensiapuun ku bussilla menis niin kauan ja on vaikea kavella. Sen jalkeen vasemmasta silmasta alko lahtea nako. Soitin sitten hatanumeroon ekaa kertaa elamassani ja kysyin etta mita mun pitais tehda. Ne lahetti ambulanssin hakemaan, ei ollu vilkkuja paalla eika mitaan.

Saavuin sitten ensiapuun ja mut ohjattiin johonki sangylle, ja paahan sattu niin paljon etten saanu lakattua itkemasta. Jossain vaiheessa tuli sairaanhoitaja ja iski tippaletkun - se on veden ja lentamisen jalkeen hirveinta, mita tiedan. Sitten mut ilmeisesti siirrettiin toiseen paikkaan, jossa havahduin myohemmin oksentamaan. Puolet meni peitolle, oli semmosta neonkeltaista tavaraa. Nukkusin yhdesta kuuteen, ja Nicola oli tullut paikalle. Heli tuli autolla hakemaan, ja kotiin paastya nukuin tunnin. Nicola oli tehnyt tosi hyvaa tonnikalapastaa, soin puoli lautasellista ja menin sitten takasin nukkumaan. Nukuin 13 tuntia putkeen, ja aamulla sarki viela paata. Nyt se sattuu vaan kun kaannan paata, eli voiton puolella ollaan.

Mun piti tosiaan eilen alkaa lukea huomiseen Italian historian tenttiin, mut kaikki lukeminen jai talle paivalle... manasin sita eilen, mut ehka parempi saada paa kondikseen ku maata sangylla niin etta koko vasemmasta puolesta on lahteny tunto.